Is She?

He didn’t know if he raped her. She had come around of her own accord but he always used to give her vodka because she wouldn’t do the things he wanted when she was sober. She had slept with him before, first time while drunk and she was wild. The second time she was sober, wanted it, but her insecurity caused her to clam up, hold a duvet around herself or worse the third time, she just laid there while he tried to arouse her. She always came around to see him, she called and text him. He had asked her out on a date but she said no as she was embarrassed to be seen with him. He wasn’t ugly but he was of a different social group and so she wouldn’t associate with him in public.

She’d come to his after being at a club and she would have sex with him. He didn’t know if drink was the reason she relaxed or if the drink was an excuse for her to relax. Either way he adored her and worshipped her body so he didn’t mind seeing it even if she had to be drunk to show him.

The last time they had sex she came around and he gave her a bottle of vodka. She had a few mouthfuls and he tried to undress her, she didn’t let him so he encouraged her to drink more. When she had drunk two thirds of the bottle he managed to get her clothes off. Another mouthful and he tried to put it where she wouldn’t let him. In the end he settled for where she would let him put it. Two minutes later he was laid next to her, her brow dripping with the sweat that had come off his forehead.

Several weeks later he received a phone call. She was pregnant.

She wouldn’t let him be involved and claimed to have an abortion. He didn’t know if she was ever pregnant, he didn’t know if she had an abortion, he didn’t know if she had a miscarriage and he doesn’t know if she is pregnant still. He hasn’t seen her in several months as they are destructive when they get together.